Well yesterday was Father's Day..... it was sad....I miss him so much....It was also Shane & I's anniversary (6yrs) but that didnt help much to take my mind off of the fact my daddy was not here for me to hug on the day solely devoted to dads. Just kept thinking about our wedding day....and Daddy walking me down the aisle.....so much has chanegd since he died...... 621 days ago....hmmm 621...that was yesterdays date....my anniversary....when he gave me away :(.....but it still hurts like it was last week......when is it gonna give....when does that "time will heal "period begin....when will i be able to be alone & think of him and not turn into the blubbering idiot that can't breathe or think.....I can talk about him with other people.....but not with my family not without crying.....I just want to hold his hand again......and tell him I love him........Shane bought me roses...and a pink balloon (collyn picked that out).....he is missing so much with her :(
